About

This is About Me… What Do You Want to Know?

Full Name: Ray Ceasar Almirante
Nicknames: Rayree, Braybray, Cat
Age: 20 (at the moment)
Ethnicity: Filipino

So you wanted to learn a little more about me? Is that right? Well you did click on this page, so I guess you wanted to.

I was born on August 17 sometime in the morning. Hailing from another country, My family got to our current living place in hopes of a better life. I guess you can say that we found  it.

As a child I always knew I was different from other people. I was very well behaved when I was little, except for those curious moments in life… those got me in trouble alot. But those didn’t happen frequently. I was never one to cry alot in public, but I cried alot by myself. I hated being yelled at. I still do actually. But back to being different. I knew a long time ago that I was going to be the strange one in school.

When I started school, I was only in preschool for half a year, then for some reason, I was placed in a Kindergarten mid year, if I’m remembering correctly. I was an extremely shy child. But not because I don’t talk to others alot, that’s far from the truth. Its because I got really intimidated in school by everyone. Everyone knew each other, and I knew no one. So for the first few weeks of actual school, I didn’t speak, even though I knew how to really well.

I love my family with all my heart, but honestly, you can say we are the strangest, yet funnest group of people you will ever meet. I don’t just mean my immediate family, I count all the cousins, family friends, and the like as a part of my family. The people I grew up with, they will always be family to me.

School wise, I can be considered a bright person. I retain information very well when I hear it, if I actually am active and participate in the exercise or if the thing I’m learning is hands on, well… I remember it forever. I don’t really study hardcore, but I do seem to just remember things really well. But that’s only pertaining to information I learn school wise.

Street smarts, now that is something I lack a lot. As everyone says, I lived under a rock. I barely know what’s going on in the world. I don’t know how to do things that use common sense half the time. I like instructions, but that totally doesn’t make sense, because I like being creative as well.

I am a very accepting person, I can empathize with alot of people. While the experience isn’t always the same, the feelings are. Being very in tuned with my emotions, allows me to see all sides of the coin/situation/and life. But because I’m a very emotional person, it gets me in some problems.

I get attached to things. It’s hard for me to let go.

Relationship-wise, I never really explore that. It really scares me. Not because of the person, or what they are capable of. Most of it is because I don’t know what I am capable of, I don’t know how to control my emotional attachments.

I love to laugh, but sometimes I laugh at the wrong times, I don’t mean to, its just very easy to make me laugh.

I dislike, with a passion, making people feel bad. I don’t ever want to be the reason why someone is upset. So I tend to make everyone happy, at least try to. But as I’ve learned over the years, that is at the expense of my own happiness.

While I have fallen in love with people, it has mostly been unrequited. People seem to see things about the person that I don’t generally see. Because of that, I don’t want to pursue my feelings most of the time. Mostly in fear of what my loved ones say about others are true.

What makes me sad the most in life, is that people that were once so near and dear to me, they end up forgetting who I am. The closeness we had, vanishes, and if not, our relationship goes sour before we separate into different life paths. It just happens to me.

I never forget a face, I do forget names.

Writing, drawing, and creating something, these activities make me happy.

Being knowledgeable and informed also makes me feel good.

I test people. Sometimes so much, that people get annoyed by me. But I found that I have to test people, in order to protect myself. I know that’s not the best thing to do, and I know I would never want lead people on or play with their emotions/hearts, but because I test our relationships with questions and doubts, well people sometimes get fed up with that.

I have many doubts about myself. I can’t say I’m happy with who I am, but alot of people are. I just got to find a way to make myself happy with me, without making others  unhappy.

Well, do you think that’s enough for now? Do you feel like you understand me a bit more?

-giggle- Of course not, I didn’t share much. But I’ll tell you guys this.

All you need to do is ask. I will always try to come up with an answer for you. Although half the time I say “I dunno” but that’s to give myself time to think more.

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